Dennis' afternoon PCA's car would not start today, so I missed my first Latin Fusion dance class. That's okay, I always hate the first class of anything. But I do wish we could find reliable help. It's not that Susanna does not want to work - she does. She is also excellent when she is here. And both Dennis and I like her, quite a bit, it turns out. But she is a poor young mother, without reliable transportation and we need reliable.
Raquel stayed as long as she could - she had to take her grandmother somewhere - and Dennis was alone for a couple of hours. He used to love this alone time and looked forward to Raquel's 2:30 departure and my homecoming at 5:00. Just this past fall he was alone for up to 3 hours on my work days. But today he called at 4:10, worried and anxious. He does not like being alone anymore.
Or rather, he feels anxious when he is alone.
When I returned home in a record 20 minutes (the roads were marvelous!), he was at the table surrounded by food. The first words out of his mouth were, "I anna o u ed." (I want to go to bed) He kept repeating this while I took off my gloves, coat and boots. I kept assuring him that I would be right with him, as soon as I could.
I can't imagine how this must feel. Abandonment? Fear? Frustration?
Anyway, he is in bed, comfortable, and feeling safe once again. And I am here, recording this teeny incident just in case someone may be interested.
Oh, and he ate a ton of food today - so all is well that ends well.
Until later,
Ann and Dennis
I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through this with your husband and you all are so young! My father-in-law has MSA and has been in an electric wheel chair for about a year now. We have had a lot of in home health care help and have tried a lot of different things to make him more comfortable. Later today when I have time I will read through all your posts, but please know that someone is praying for you both! Blessings, Janet
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